The Never Ending Journey

There are as many ways to live in this world as there are people, and each one deserves a closer look.

This is a blog about blogs

So, in the fervor of the online world, everyone these days has a blog. A beauty blog or an art blog or like me a whatever blog. Mine started as a way to document my travels and while I was in Europe to delicately portray my time with the hellion children. But what I am focused on now, in this exact time, is the amount of beauty blogs out there. Don’t get me wrong, I am always reading them and getting tricks and ideas. What I want to say, however, is that my own personal beauty secrets/tricks are not so much secrets/tricks. I am constantly doing something new merely because I have forgotten certain information I have read or learned. I don’t think I have kept up with a beauty regimen for years that I hold to a religious status. I do have products I have used since before I could walk but that doesn’t mean I will never use anything else. To me, it feels like we must have these awesome beauty tips to be an appropriate female. I am just normal, I know that. I look at old pictures and I think about how much I loved the way my hair looked or my make up during a certain time period but I cannot tell you how I did it! Bottom line of those pointless rant is that I am just a normal girl. I have no tricks or secrets for anything I do for hair or skin. I don’t stick to one workout routine everyday. It just seems that so many girls are on YouTube or blog sites giving their expertise on topics and to me I’m thinking “well you’re like 16 how can you be such an expert?!” I don’t know.

These are just thoughts reflecting on my normalness and average lifestyle.

Another sleepless night with thoughts running on my mind treadmill. They’re running a 7 minute mile.

There is nothing worse than not being able to sleep at night and have 100 million thoughts circulate in my head. Lately, I have been over stressing out about my future and what is to come of it and how I am going to handle (pay) for it. No one could have seen it coming that I would have a long distance relationship and have to spend every dime on flying back and forth. I wouldn’t change it one bit (unless I could have had Ferrell in my city) but it has added stress I never knew I could have. I am planning on moving to NYC after graduation. Apparently, this cost $10,000.00 just to move. I have always known the expense but in my mind it was that I needed enough for two months rent and a deposit and of course I would have or be getting a job ASAP. Any job will do, event planning, cocktail waitress, or working at Bare Minerals SoHo. But recently random passerby’s have been giving me unsolicited advice about how much I truly need. I wanted to be able to just pick up and go and struggle for a while before figuring it out. Apparently, this isn’t even do able. So my question is, how do young people move there without so much as a couch to crash on until they figure it out? After being in school four year and neck deep in student loans, I don’t know how anyone does it, but they do. So, dammit I determined. On top of all of this, I would like to be married before moving in with Ferrell. The problem with this is, we have no money for a wedding. I would like to elope but I still would love to have all the bells and whistles and my family along side. This would set back our moving to the city as well. Then I thought, what if we get engaged and move to the city then plan a wedding over the course of a couple years. The problem is though, would we have a wedding in NYC or back home in Arkansas. So then, we are paying for plane tickets back and forth and having to plan from a thousand miles away! DO YOU SEE WHY I AM STRESSING. I send some of this to my mom the other day and she replies with “relish in the joy of today” and “Only God has control” which stopped me in my tracks and makes me realize that as well. I have not given the big man any credit lately. Nor have I been giving him my concerns and honestly, my life. I also need to remember I can’t control when or if Ferrell will propose (LOL). But I have been up countless nights with all these thoughts. It was no means a bad detour from my life plan but meeting my love did changes things! I am just thankful he is with me in pursing my New York City dream and thats the best support a girl could ask for from a man. It’s time to let go of my fears, jealousy, desires, and whatever else is keeping these obsessive thoughts in my brain, and give it to the Lord because when it comes down to it, I am willing to go anywhere in the world and do anything that is set in my path because I love the adventure. Then again, I also love Ikea and that got me into some credit card trouble a few days ago!

Cheers to starting another year !

Cheers to starting another year !

Jumps of joy for making it a year together!! 

Happy anni to my man - thanks for putting up with my dramatics and being so selfless to me. I luv u even with your “great” accents and inability to be graceful on a trampoline. @relli89

Jumps of joy for making it a year together!!

Happy anni to my man - thanks for putting up with my dramatics and being so selfless to me. I luv u even with your “great” accents and inability to be graceful on a trampoline. @relli89

Why You Should Move To A New City Where You Don't Know A Single Soul

This article is fitting as I have been stressing out about moving to New York after graduation to the point of releasing my strep throat every other week! I have experienced some of these things when I went to Europe on my own and now as I have moved to Florida for the summer. But even in those instances I had some comfort with connections (i.e. Lukas or my cousin Taylor) and now here in Florida with Ferrell and the fact that it isn’t such foreign territory. However, going to NYC is a whole new ballgame with grown up situations I will have to deal with like taxes or making rent in a highly rent inflated area. More than anything, though, I am most excited about trying and seeing if I fail or succeed. I am also most excited for having all new territory and possibly reinventing myself or you know, just seeing a shit ton of musicals and crying through every single one. Does anyone experience that like I do? I mean, I did cry in How to Train Your Dragon 2 this afternoon, but who’s to judge. 

Don’t forget to live.

It’s always sunny in Florida

Said no one who has ever lived here or even visited. Every single day in the summer, it rains. Whether is be for a few minutes or the whole day, sure enough there will be rain. I should have been aware of this from my countless family vacations to the beach but maybe I wasn’t so observant of the weather when I was hiding away in the condo room reading my young adult rom com novels. But, the rain will fall every day at some time or another and when it does, I am thankful for the lack of heat in that moment but I am also dreading the intense humidity that follows. Can a girl catch a break? Curly hair does not fend well in this type of atmosphere! I have been to the hair dresser more in the past month or two than I have in the past two years! A Dios mio! I need help! But being down here has helped with my relationship with Ferrell so much and also with my car. It now has new brake pads and an air filter which if it not had been for my man, then these would never get replaced. Thanks, love! But on the flip side, he did lose my hubcap on the highway…how interesting was it to hear that he was driving along and saw my hubcap roll past him….Just add that to the list of locking my keys in my car and also in my bedroom as well as other things and we are quite the team. 

Stay cool, Friends!